Mimie Sarah

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Littlest Thing - Lily Allen

Sometimes I find myself sittin’ back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin’
And I remember when you started callin’ me your miss’s
All the play fightin’, all the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don’t why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed
Watching DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All that I know is I’mma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I’ll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’mma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It’ll all get better in time

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I could honestly say
You’ve been on my mind
Since i woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And i dont mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till i cry
But the one thing i wish i’d forget
A memory i wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning
And played our song
And i know my tears sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
Coz i know im wasting my time
And i dont mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till i cry
But the one thing i wish i’d forget
A memory i wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone’s glowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
It does it right to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on our lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish i’d forget
Is saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Goodbye

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LA Guana Dr. “When its real you just know. When you care more about someone than you do yourself. Is it deeper than whats on the surface?  And when its real you will know. Don’t trust if they said “it is real”, “i’m hypocrite if i talk bad about you even the worst things happen to us” Its a lie and don’t be so stupid. If they were poor, not preety, and had nothing, just nobody, would you still feel the same about them? NEVER..It is not real..

LA Guana Dr. “They may not recognize you, even though you have finally met again, even though you know them. You can feel the bond. You can see the potential, the future. But they does not. Their fears, their intellect, their problems keep a veil over their heart’s eyes. They does not let you help them sweep the veil aside. You mourn and grieve, and they moves on. Destiny can be so delicate. They being hypocrite, backstabbing you, telling others so that they can feel better, they do this because they have bad judgement. If they does this, tell them that it is unacceptable to tell other people, talk bad about another people behind their back. Some things are private. But you must not engage in the same behavior. You never been treated so well. They never care. Its hard to accept that everything was not real..

Silence begins the day
As morning comes without notice
Tears begin to fall, slowly
The day moves on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be
Why does life have to be like this
Full of hatred and pain
Instead of joy and bliss
Healing from the hatred
The hatred of our hearts
(Gary R. Hess)

Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better?? Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.

For this I do not regret
The time with you that I had spent

Sejak Ia pergi dari hidupku
ku merasa sepi
dia tinggalkan ku sendiri
tanpa satu yang pasti

aku tak tau harus bagaimana
aku merasa tiada berkawan
selain dirimu
selain cintamu

Kirim aku malaikatMu
biar jadi kawan hidupku
dan tunjukan jalan yang memang Kau pilihkan untukku

Kirim aku malaikatMu
karena ku sepi berada di sini
dan di dunia ini aku tak mau sendiri

tanpa terasa aku
teteskan air mata ini
yang tiada berhenti
mengiringi kisah di hati

aku tak tau harus bagaimana
aku merasa tiada berkawan
selain dirimu
selain cintamu

Kirim aku malaikatMu
biar jadi kawan hidupku
dan tunjukan jalan yang memang Kau pilihkan untukku

Kirim aku malaikatMu
karena ku sepi berada di sini
dan di dunia ini aku tak mau sendiri

…dan di dunia ini aku tak mau sendiri…

I look at you and my anger rages like an ocean

A vast sea of wasted feelings and precious time

Hurt by the things you say and do to me

And the things you don’t think I hear

Or you don’t think I’ll find out

They always find their way back to me

And the gaps and oceans between us

Grow wider and vaster and deeper

As words get between us until

Neither of us knows what to say

And nothing is left to do but turn around

And look the other way

Telling lies

To let the other one know who’s not hurt the most

When really all it does is tear me up inside

My empty heart is screaming

Fighting against the currents

Of love and hate, pulling away from each other

Like the moon and the ocean

As we grow farther apart

I want to talk

To try to works things out and

Repair the rift that keeps growing

But words get in the way

We get angrier and more frustrated

But how do I explain

How I feel and how much I want

To whisper between classes

And go on shopping

And share notes and eat ice cream and giggle

Spend the day and night making fish faces

Until we laugh so hard our sides split

And do all the things that used to be important

But are now forbidden

Because one of us might let our guard down

And say or do something that will make the other angry

I really want things to be like before

I’m not regret because I know I don’t loss anything

A year I’ve been waiting to end this pain

I’m proud of myself because I know

I’m not using you for my own benefits

If I’m selfish, I only be your friend when I need you

But somehow as I sit here and write this

Not because I want to but because I have to

For you and for myself

The rift seems to heal itself

And the ocean doesn’t seem quite so bottomless

And I’m smiling again

Because I know you will read this

And understand it and me, and the way I feel

Because you always have

And I know you always will

It’s that bond that reaches over oceans

And repairs torn hearts

Something that only best friend can understand

It has been a year since i suffered a severe loss. It is hard if we were to accept death, but it is even harder when the death is still fresh in our memory.

I stared at the picture of my dad and my mum at the dining area. Now, the empty chair brings a lot of memories i’ll never forget. As i gazed at the chair, i was assaulted with memories. Dad had sat on that chair every morning, drinking coffee with mum. i could still remember hearing his story about life, as he sat on tat chair. But now the chair is empty. N dad is gone. Sudden, hot tears came to my eyes and everytime i went home, i juz couldn’t look at the chair anymore. But turning away do no good. Everywhere i looked, the house was filled with memories of him. i remember he always said "Mimi, abah sayang kamu", “duit cukup tak?” and "i’m very proud of you”. N i will never forget this, “suka dan sayang tak sama”..dad, i miss u..

The next few days after the death went by in a blur. i didn’t stay at home for long, i went back to hostel pretending as if  im okay with everything. i will keep myself busy. will do a lot of things tat i enjoy most and hoping i’ll be okay and believing tat everythg will be fine (time heals all wounds rite). i went through the motions somehow detached from everything. None of what had happened seemed real. It was all so strange. The funeral came and went. friends and family was there showing their concern .Now, i understand better. There’s no one truly care actually. Its hard to find. And then, quite suddenly, it was all over.

Now, im juz not as excited and happy to go home as before. Not bcoz my family hates me, they still loves me, not bcoz im not belong there, but bcoz i feel strange there. i felt as if  im not in my own house anymore. Silence asserted itself in there. It was an awful silence, actually a stillness, which served to make the memories seem audible.  No one in that house seemed to understand me. i felt like a outsider in my own house. And what was worse, i felt alone. Painfully alone. Mum and i tried to comfort each other, but neither of us seemed strong enough to support each other. We didn’t talk about it much. It was painful for her, and i am still too numb to know what im feeling.

My friends, who had been by my side during the initial few days of the tragedy, called less and less now. When they did call, it was usually to see if I wanted to "get away," go for a movie or out for a bite. i began to feel as if they had forgotten that my dad had just died. I felt as if they just wanted to have fun like we always had before, and didn’t care how I am feeling.

Lucky now i have him as a good listener. For me, people need to talk a lot about the death of their loved one. The more i talk, the more i process the reality. There is no timetable for completing the grief process. i hate n totally resent being told "u should be over it by now." Moving towards acceptance is a lengthy process, maybe so it will takes forever, even if people return to their normal selves.

In the days following dad’s death, i felt excruciatingly alone, surrounded by so many memories of him. i yearned to have someone to talk to, someone to tell how i was feeling. Frankly, i longed to have a shoulder to cry on. A phone call would have meant everything to me, even if the caller had been just an acquaintance. Luckily till now i have him to talk to. Thanx…!!!

i hate people who use clichés. i juz want them to be honest with their feelings. i juz need support. Saying little is better than too say a lot but meaningless. it is not as if they say a lot of things means that they care!! Stop being hypocrite!! Stop saying things that u don’t meant to… “u have me now, i’m ur friend” then the next thing you know you backstab me. What kind of friends are you?? But for now, i don’t even care anymore… But on the other side, on reflection, i now realize that my friends didn’t mean to hurt me through their actions. Some were afraid they would "say the wrong things." Others didn’t know what to say or do. They simply don’t understand what I am feeling, and they don’t know how to help me. When they didn’t ask how i was feeling and when im longing someone to talk to i simply thought my friends don’t have time for my pain.

Having faith is a necessary step toward one of two things. Being healed is one of them. Peace of mind, if healing doesn’t come, is the other. Either one will suffice. The most important thing any of us can do to comfort the grieving is to listen when they want to talk and to accept their silence if they are unable to speak about their loss. -Susan Jacoby-

iTs nOt aLwaYs EasY to wOrk wiTh oTherS eSpeciaLLy wHen eGo coNflictS mAy aRiSe

tHiNk bEfoRe aCt

thInk beForE sAy sOmething

Think bEforE losE tEmper

fiNd oUt wHy sOmeonE iS bEhavIng coLd tOwardS yOu beForE yOu deciDe tO tAke acTion. thEre coULd bE somEthiNg yOu aRe uNawaRe oF.

nOt WorTh iT….!!!!

doNt Let caRelEss spEEch uPseT tHose CLose tO yOu. yOu cAn huRt witH sHarp cRiticism sO fiNd aNothEr wAy tO sAy iT…

pErTanyaaNku… petikaN tEnTanG diA

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